I don't know what else bothering me so much. I have no hints to find it out. I felt I lost somewhere. I can't (couldn't) explain how about the thingy as I am the one who caused for it. I knew, I disturbed because of me, of course yes. Here no one I should blame. I thought I am strong enough to face everything and everyone. But I am just another loser like every girls do. I messed everything because of my thoughts which not suppose arise. I felt myself as a caused for each and every single things went wrong. Yes I knew, I suffering all because of my own attitudes. I can't act more. I felt like I need to end this but I found there's no way for it. As I knew I ran out of time. Don't know where to attain the happiness that I lost within a second just like a magic? I was like the another lady, in the world and I don't think that anyone having problem similar like me? I believe there's lot of people having problem of course because of their own stupidity but I am so sure there's no one unwilling to correct it. But I couldn't correct it. I heard from people that ladies very good in forgiving and forgetting things as they too soft for them to take so God request them to wipe it thru their tears and make them strong, will ask them to go on whenever they facing problems or trouble. But my God cruel because He let me cry over and over but never teach me to forgive and forgets things. Why I can't concentrate other than in the one I lose? I have no strenght and wonders why me all the time need to read lines. Why I cannot just walk off? I tired of spelling I can't I won't I don't
Things make me think wise ... Hope for the best..
by,
A girl who lost in War
