:) quite difficult to say in the way people could understand. I want every my wishes to be get done as my touch, because I want it in that "specific" way and of course there has many many reason why I want to be like that nor things have to be done in that way. My one of best friend told me that I am an idealistic person, I denied. I never agreed at all. I thought I was broad and wise minded but in few matters I have noticed, I being so stubborn and adamant to agree the fact is different from my view or has changed from the fact that I known. I want my things to be done in that "specific" way I wanted to be and never wanted to change my mentality. Well I would say this is not healthy. I aware of it, certainly. I thought I was facing problem because of others doing. I never hesitate to confess my faults or weakness to anyone. Now I felt different kind that I am the one who suppose culpable whenever things went wrong. It's so hard to overcome. I realized all starts from me. So I decided to not talk much; to avoid further problems. But will people got me in right way? I hurt many people. Especially someone who very closed to me. I being so touchy now a days. Most of time I try not to talk back ( a day before my brother told the same according numerology) nor talk within me to avoid problems. But somehow I spelled some words out. I ran out of time to regret why I have done that. I go mad whenever problems arise. No one will stand in this situation. He stands. Don't know how long. We always have quarrels because of this. I react like stranger because I afraid to tell what is running in my mind. I can't adapt everything he tells. I couldn't follow his foot step instead I was very obedient :) I have to change or else I need to walk off in the way I wanted to be. Things has changed. I don't prefer any changes my life unless better improvements.
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**this is confession of a girl, in her diary**
