I don't know what is this.. People has already gave thousand many example for this love. For me, it's just another emotion like anger, jealous, happy, moody and etc. I would say this love worse than other feeling. My life tremendously turned to new world. My dreams was sweet, colourful, abnormal, make me feel like the top of the world. I had wonderful feelings for him. As I know love is trust. I don't know about sweet talk, pamper, empty promises. What I know, I belief him. He treats me good. Like a princess? That was very new for me. He cared for me. Something I never felt before very closely. But he walk away from the I feeling I had for him. He was everything to me. But I don't find the closeness. He hides many from me. I tried to convince myself as nothing is there. He told people he never love me. I tried to forget things. He said I shouldn't hope for him. I tried to not hope for him. He was not ready to spend time with me. I tried to not ask anything. I cried and try to read my lines again. I decided to not bug him anymore. Now things changing to good which I don't prefer. Why this love came to me and now controlling my mind as an evil? Well I know what I want. I can't stand with this again. Yes I need to move on with my own life without him but there's something don't let me go on as I am. What was that? He's love or the way he cared for me? But I aware that was not truth but that's sweet. I wanted to tell him straight of, I don't want to be with him. I want to be alone!!! But when I starts think back, the way I lived with him I can't believe I living in fake?! That was so realistic.. He acts good? No he never act. He being himself. I knew that. I noticed he never has feeling for me and seeing me just like another woman. But I was pretending like I understand him well. That was too bitter.. After all I realized onething I would not be happy without him but something strikes to mind, I will be peace without him. But I knew I just console myself by telling that I aware I will lose the peace too. I knew I will think again and again about him.. Us.. The time we had together. It's heals everything. Like now? Yes.. I feel I am the luckiest girl. Memories never dies. That's true. Now I wishing him. Oh my god.. This called love?! I knew within a minutes I will think again the hard times I went thru. I wish I don't want to think about it anymore. I love to feel the way I am. I like to love him.. Let me in this way...
by,
A girl who lost in love..
***just a script**
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