That person..

So, love. What a complicated and difficult feeling? You not gonna have any brilliant idea, 'how' did 'that' happened. I still wondering, "which part". Best of mine know this is ridiculous, and the worst of mine did not wanna have any trouble. And rest of mine knew the fact I have fallen. Love is not allowing yourself into chance and got into relationship but being together all the time without realising it and not leaving each other when there's lot of chances for exit. It's just a beautiful garden but we preferred to hide ourself in bushes insteads of enjoy our moments with blossom. Love is knowing your best and worst. Isn't cool if he could remember your best friend's name and puppy's bread? It's a gift to be with someone who know us better than you assume, that person that you would never lie even you have choices. That person, you never wanted to perform any drama. That person, you want to update every tiny stuffs. That person, you wanted to keep in touch for not any specific deal. That person, who you wanted to be there. That person, you will get miniature jealous when with others. That person, you can't stand if not fine! If that's the person.. This person will never take advantage on you. This person, will not bother about ego. This person, will wait for you. This person, will never make you jealous. This person, never want to put you down. This person, will never fail to check if everything ok with you. This person, will never quest or doubt on you. This person, will never need length explanation. This person, will never need certificate about you. This person, will never try to judge you! If this is the person, your life is complete! Maybe this is what they called as Angel and I started to believing it..

Love

If had a chance to think about me just remember I love you and forever.. Nothing can replace your presences in my life.. I don't have answer for how and why but that's only left for me continue my faith on earth.. If had one more chance, I would tell you how much you mean for me, how much I wanted to be with you.. How precious you are.. How important you are.. Would seek your forgiveness for rest of my life..

Love you forever..

Dear Love (You),

Dear Love,

How you doing? Hope everything going well with you.. Sweetheart.. I know I would have over reacted.. Sometimes you need to be generous to forgive a poor girl who did things with no intentions..

You told me, you know me - even you didn't, I know you does.. Perhaps you wouldn't wanna know further.. Yes, but there's always some things left with no clue which may lead to complications or better solutions or an ending.. I never need a solution or complications.. Likely, an ending, a blessed one..

I never really wonder why things weren't right for us. Maybe I love you alot to face any consequence. Maybe I knew the consequence.. Maybe I don't wanna know anything.. Maybe all I want to know is you and no other thing.. I knew we weren't prepared for anything.. We were happy and celebrating our infinity.. Wish we could celebrate this best moment until end of our life.. Or should have celebrated the best of it..

I never want you to be perfect, no, not at all.. Just be the right one for me.. Be with me as though this is our last day on earth.. Hold me tight.. Keep me close with you.. Let me lay on your arms.. A little space for me to say 'this is mine'.. I still could feel palm of your hand within mine.. My mind says, this is my eternal.. My heart will comply every action of yours without any instructions.. This is the magic that I believe..

Hold on - that's what you said.. Yes, you still and will always hold my magic control and no one could take away from you.. Have it or destroy it but don't ever have a thought of give me back.. You can't.. You can't reverse or undone anything, my love.. You had all my love.. Took everything from my soul and rhythm.. You could never reverse any of our part that we played perfectly..

I know I don't speak a word, never ever try to attain anything back.. I just want to continue from the moment we pause it.. I don't want any explanations, tears, scene, regrets, words but just a perfect dream that we had..

I don't have any hope, my love.. Maybe, I don't have anymore left.. Maybe I would have left.., a little? Don't worry about me.. Do not care what others think about you even what I think about you.. Take my words, when I think about you - my mind works as if it's yours. And you always right even you are at the other side of practical. Your happiness is my priority.. I know you.. Never worry about anything, me..

Do not wonder, what I will do without your presence in this space.. I will always love you, wishing you, and thinking of you.. Yes, I know I am such a lovely soul, love every single person in this world but all I wanted to be with, is you and only. No one else.. Love, I only allowed to love you.. I can't pause or resume or delete your memories.. You are precious and I know you.. This is all yours, dear..

Yours,
Love..

You, Me

My balcony, the forest, the stars, the silence, the music, the warm and me.. =)


They : Why are you so happy? Dancing and SMILING.. That's so.. *smiles..* What's up, girl?

Me : I am thinking of him..

They : Uhmmm.. :/

Me : He's.. Everything so beautiful about him..

They : You are.. Speechless..

Me : I don't want him but I need him to smile and cry.. He's my only reason and cause.. =) You wouldn't know this. Because you don't know him.. He's so right for me..